No More Drinking

I fear that I have reached the stage now where I can no longer go out drinking. I knew this was coming. I have never been one to keep together emotionally while drunk, and this weekend I just lost it. I mean I am sure I will still go out and have one or two drinks, but my days of college level drinking I fear are over. To me this is one of the shittier aspects of the husband leaving. He has been able to drink legally for about a year and a half. I have only had a month. I want to be able to go to the bars with my friends and drink like he did while he was 21, but I just can't trust my self to keep it together.